🕑 Added 2024-02-06 21:55:53 +0000 UTC
### 𝟛𝟜, 𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕝𝕖, 𝕟𝕠 𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖𝕤, & 𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕒 𝕧𝕚𝕣𝕘𝕚𝕟
*****Yes you read that right***** 😅
💔 *****Because I was raised in a strict home that was strict about everything including religion, I was never permitted to:*****
● Date before I was smixteen
● Go to parties or friend's houses unless a parent confirmed they'd be there... or we did.
● Couldn't be out past 10 pm unless I got it ok, then curfew was midnight
● Get more than 1 peircing or any tattoos
● Wear clothing that was more revealing like showing cleavage, midriff, upper thighs, shoulders. Only exceptions were sports team attire like a swimsuit for training or competitions.
● Drink or smoke
● wear makeup until I turned smixteen
● Have sex or masturbate or watch porn
● Watch or play things depicting sex or v10l3nc3
● Do anything on Sundays or Mondays that wasn't family centered.
● Get any grades less than a B unless I wanted to pay my parents
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💔 So I was never really allowed normal freedoms others had. The weight of never disappointing my family was always heavy. I did masturbate in secret... like beyond what a normal individual would. But the level of shame and guilt associated were and are still things I'm trying to get over.
💔 Because of the strictness and not wanting to disappoint, I stuck to swimming and getting straight A's. I never even went to a sk00l dance (aside from 1 in middle sk00l because I was in social dance and we had to perform a number... after which I left. So I don't count that).
💔 Boys only showed interest in my friends who were "pretty" while I was "sporty".
💔 I had my first kiss at 21 from my ex boyfriend... and the kissing was GOD AWFUL! 😅
💔 So I just never experienced what others do, and never learned things like what I like about me or others, what I desire, etc.
💔 When I say I'm a virgin, I mean in ALL sense of the word. I've never done anything with another person. No blowies, no copping feels, no nothing. So... there's a little about that 😅😅😅