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To hold and to be. A multitude of all things and One. Yes, ..
🕑 Added 2022-08-18 19:23:50 +0000 UTC To hold and to be. A multitude of all things and One. Yes, there is pain and suffering that will have you questioning the world and God and yourself - Yes, there is beauty and hope - and that moment when you realize *You are the miracle.* You! Existing at this time, in this space, and all the timelines before and to come. I sat on the mountain top and wept, and it healed me. I came back to a soft bed and heavy news, and wept again. I remembered all the times where my tears were swept off my cheek with a well meaning, “aw little girl, please don’t be sad.” So I learned then and again that my rawness brings discomfort. Little girl, do not apologize for your truth. Woman, Creator of life, do not hide who you are and what made *you.* And with a heart heavy with grief, I yelled at the sky proclaiming “Enough is enough! What more can I take?” And then laughed. Because - yes, there is pain and my pain is big. Yes, there is light and my light is big, too. And so I hold both. Realizing for the first time, there is room. We are told there are limits, but I keep living and reaching and finding that maybe, just maybe, my capacity *is* limitless. You cannot destroy pain. So I let it live. And then… I turn it to gold. *I’m going to start sharing my free form writing. Unedited. Just writing, sharing, a flow of consciousness*
