If you didn’t see my twitter post, I finally hit a trigger t..
🕑 Added 2020-03-31 20:58:04 +0000 UTC
If you didn’t see my twitter post, I finally hit a trigger that set me on a really dark mental journey today and I’ve been fighting to stop feeling so numb and uncomfortable...
I usually don’t get bothered by r*pe scenes but today it pushed me over the edge. I remembered things I haven’t remembered in years about the first time it happened to me and I feel.......like I just woke up from something I forgot about for a long time and I hate this so so so so so so so fucking much.
I haven’t eaten much and I’m really tired. I’m pushing through it and for those of you who say why am I posting on here something so personal?
Because if I didn’t or made up some fake excuse like being sick a lot of my members would put so much weight on me for taking time to myself and I just want everyone to know I’m genuinely upset I’m not working right now cause I was so excited to do a photoset this morning in these braids and I even considered doing one of those “crying but make it sexy” photoshoots but I just genuinely don’t feel sexy and idk how to get over this. I feel so fucking raw I can’t even let my boyfriend touch me and that makes me feel even worse.
I love you all for the new fans support and love and just literally everything I’m so sorry that I’m not as strong as I’d like to be today.....
Please understand and send love ❤️
{reposted from my @missfayeVIP OF}
