if anyone knows me they know how emotionally regulated i ten..
🕑 Added 2024-12-12 03:11:29 +0000 UTC
if anyone knows me they know how emotionally regulated i tend to be, but for the past little while there's been a lot of life changes that my mind is still catching up to i rarely ever cry off camera,so crying on camera is still pretty new to me😅 after this video was filmed i took time to reflect on everything that made me so upset, and found i was able to do that a lot easier now that i was in a calmer state. as soon as i started filming, i felt as if i entered a new reality, distracting my mind from anything negative going on inside it. i was way too focused on the pleasurable feeling inside me instead😌using masturbation as a coping mechanism CAN be healthy depending on the intention behind it. i wasn't doing this to ignore the pain i felt, but to calm myself down in order to understand my pain better afterwards. because of this, i believe the action of what im doing to be helpful as opposed to harmful. while it helps pull me out of a spiralling state, i also know at the same time im getting even more work done, and furthering changing the stigmas around porn by being more vulnerable+personable in my content. crying is healthy and it's very real, so it's only fair if you get to see a smile on my face, you also see when it breaks a little too.🤍
