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💙 TW: body weight / ED i just wanna preface this by saying i..
🕑 Added 2022-10-23 10:53:02 +0000 UTC 💙 TW: body weight / ED i just wanna preface this by saying i was extremely ill and malnourished in the second photo and my body at that time is absolutely not something to strive for and not something i wanna be praised for. these photos are taken a year apart. i've struggled with eating for most of my life due to a lot of different factors like trauma, ocd and sensory issues. a year ago a was struggling to eat one meal a day. the thought of eating, deciding what to eat, making sure it's fresh and clean, being okay with the texture, the actual thought of putting food into my mouth, chewing, and swallowing was far too much for me to deal with and would often lead to meltdowns and avoiding food altogether. it often still is too much for me, but i've gotten better at coping, I've found healthy safe foods, i've put things in place to help myself feel more comfortable with food, i've started exercising, valuing my health and listening to my body. now i eat two meals every day, i usually have snacks and im drinking so much more water. smoothies with a lil bit of fibre powder for breakfast have changed my life. it's not a huge improvement and i still struggle every single day but i can really feel the difference. i don't feel like my body is withering away, im not in pain and fatigued 24/7, i actually have some energy to do the other shit i need to do to work on my mental health, my mind doesn't feel so foggy which has helped me to think more rationally in times of stress, and I'm so proud to say that i've gained almost 15kg and hit my weight goal!!! 🥺💓
