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And we have come to the last part of my drama story. To sum ..
And we have come to the last part of my drama story. To sum up all the points of my nervous breakdown is 1. Problems with work, documents and salary. 2. Exploding brain from a large number of studiesto bring out my reach and platforms to attract the target audience. The opposite result of all my efforts. Lack of sales of my paintings. 3. Blocking my instagram (the main source of my life, damn it) And the icing on the cake for my anxiety is the news that my best friend is expecting a baby. While I am torn in the anguish and suffering of my wo...
What is a wet kitty? 🥰🐱 my drama part 3 The next reason for..
What is a wet kitty? 🥰🐱 my drama part 3 The next reason for my depression was on Instagram. As I said, I began to undergo training and did not sit idly by, I needed to earn money in order to deal with my salary and documents (see part 1 of my drama). And at this moment, when I start to work hard and work hard in order to achieve my goal, Instagram decides to reward me with a shadowban. I'm starting to see my stats go down, posts get blocked, and people send me screenshots of my page looking blank. My videos and posts are not recomm...
Guys! Please follow and support my new INSTAGRAM page ⤵️ ht..
Guys! Please follow and support my new INSTAGRAM page ⤵️ https://instagram.com/valeriyaa.sg?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y= if not difficult, share this post on your page 🤍 I will be very grateful + 100 to karma 😋
Hi guys! I have an important question for you, answer honest..
Hi guys! I have an important question for you, answer honestly: would you mind if your girlfriend / wife posted hot photos on instagram? You know how much I love photographing the human body, its beauty, curves and aesthetics. I believe that our body is unique, and that is why it is beautiful. Since guys are easier to photograph in this regard, sometimes I ask my friends to help me in realizing some creative ideas. I'm telling you the situation: One day my friend saw my photos of these guys (I will attach a photo in the post). She was del...
Lately I've been thinking a lot about transitional states. F..
Lately I've been thinking a lot about transitional states. Few people are fixed in them, but there are many realizations in them. You woke up and here it is a small, subtle moment of transition from dream to reality. Or you left the house and closed the door, and here it is the transition from the field of home atmosphere to the street, how does the feeling change just behind the closed door? A completely different atmosphere, and you just took a step. Here you can still be close to someone, the person said one word to you, after which ...
my drama part 2 The second reason for my concern was in stu..
my drama part 2 The second reason for my concern was in studing. Due to the fact that my business was not going well, I could not sit idly by. It was necessary to act. I decided that I needed to develop my Instagram profile with my paintings. Now the fastest way to advance is “reels” I began to actively shoot videos for promotion and make content. It is quite difficult when you have absolutely no energy, inspiration and ideas. To all this is added the winter period, which gives us little light. So I had to get up very early and have time ...
Heeey! Check your private messages, there you will find the ..
Heeey! Check your private messages, there you will find the whole series of these pics 😋😘 I congratulate everyone on the upcoming new year. Thank you for staying with me 🤍 See you in the new year
My new set « DIVE IN VIBE» for @suicidegirls in MR now 😍 Su..
My new set « DIVE IN VIBE» for @suicidegirls in MR now 😍 Support it please guys Do you like it?
Hi all I will write the second part of my story a little lat..
Hi all I will write the second part of my story a little later. Now I want to congratulate you on the holidays. I want to say to you all first of all a big thank you for your support. You are the best 🤍 Many of you I already know very well, because we constantly communicate. I know your stories and what kind of people you are. I am very glad that here I have only the best and most interesting personalities. You are like my little family, my secret community where I share the most intimate. You see me naked not only in body but also in sou...
Hi!!! Finally finished the post. I'll call it "My Drama" Par..
Hi!!! Finally finished the post. I'll call it "My Drama" Part 1 One of the most important reasons for my bad condition is my work. You already know that I work as an official artist, I sell my paintings. This is necessary for me to have the opportunity to live here in Poland. My residence permit is directly related to my work. No job - no residence permit. I signed an agreement with one startup. They give me the opportunity to live here and get a residence permit, and I, in turn, am obliged to collect a certain amount per month to...
Today is the 20th day. 🔓today we will become a little closer..
Today is the 20th day. 🔓today we will become a little closer, I will show my real self in these 20 days (scroll left) How often behind beautiful pictures lies pain, fear, despair, tears, hatred, anxiety, self-flagellation and loneliness. Feeling like the world around is collapsing. This is how I spend my days, this is my reality now. It is very difficult to find the strength to write and tell something. The head is empty and at the same time chaos. I do something because it is necessary, mechanically. I can't bear to be with myself, I ...
Today is the 17th day of my retreat. After consulting with ..
Today is the 17th day of my retreat. After consulting with an astrologer, I felt a little better. She said such a thing that I (according to astrology) is very connected with the moon, and advised me to write down my states in accordance with the phase of the moon. To track it down. I know this may sound silly to a lot of people, but I have been researching the effect of the moon on the earth. Do you know how the moon affects the tides? So I think there really are people who depend on it. Actually this is a very interesting topic. Since I bel...
Want a fun fact about me? I don't like talking on the phone...
Want a fun fact about me? I don't like talking on the phone. I don't like talking at all. It's always easier for me to write. Sometimes I don't even consciously pick up the phone when someone calls, I wait for a while and write a message with the text, "I was busy." Every year I become more and more closed and move away from people. I feel comfortable being alone, but sometimes it scares me. I am 100% introvert. I have almost no friends and I often prefer to stay at home than go to some noisy event. I calmly go alone t...
Today is the 10th day of my voluntary retreat. I haven't le..
Today is the 10th day of my voluntary retreat. I haven't left the house for 10 days. And for the third day I do nothing but draw. My brushes do not obey me, i cant nothing. I draw, I erase, I draw again, and so on in a circle. I am very confused in myself, in my life. I don't know who I am, what I am, why I do all this, I have no purpose. Many years ago, when I was in a similar situation, I used every opportunity to close this hellish circle. I contacted with astrologer. I know that many do not believe in this, I did not believe it e...
Hello. I was finally able to finish this text. It is difficu..
Hello. I was finally able to finish this text. It is difficult to write about something now, because there is a chaos of thoughts in my head. I constantly rush between the state: “do not give up, everything will be fine, this is just such a period. Any growth, personal, creative or spiritual, always goes through suffering. You need it now. Just let it go, don't block it." And Between the state of complete, total frustration. I isolated myself from everyone. I draw a lot and learning, do exercises in the morning, meditate every day,...
Hey! analyzing my jumps in my psychological state, I can say..
Hey! analyzing my jumps in my psychological state, I can say that now I am stuck somewhere between complete despair and hope. Somewhere in the middle. From experience with depression, I know what despair looks like, at least to me. But I haven't reached that point yet. But I also can’t say that this is something like a bad mood, or just apathy. I do not know what is this. Every day the soul seems to be torn into small pieces, every day I receive bad news and every day it seems that it can't get any worse. But despite this, I still...
Hi guys! Besides the fact that I am beautiful and just a goo..
Hi guys! Besides the fact that I am beautiful and just a good person😄 I am also an artist. I paint pictures with space, abstraction and nature. You can always support me by purchasing one of my works. This is really necessary for me right now. 🙏🏽 You can see my works in my art account on instagram (@_lysergicc) or send me a private message and I will send you all the works available for ordering. I do delivery worldwide. I would be grateful for your help and support 🤍 you can also help me with information, share any of my post...
Guys! Today is Black Friday! Swipe ➡️ And this means that y..
Guys! Today is Black Friday! Swipe ➡️ And this means that you can pick up my calendar for 2023 at a discount! If you are interested write me a DM
1️⃣ Love what you have No change in life comes to us in a s..
1️⃣ Love what you have No change in life comes to us in a state of hatred. If we do not love our work, then we do not leave this life lesson, but only aggravate it. If something is happening to us, then this is exactly what we need now. And why would everyone have their own. There was and is a lot of pain in my life, it’s just that the world is arranged in such a way that growth is always in an alarming unknown, and not in an understandable and warm moment where everything is familiar to us. But if we love this state and understand tha...
This is how my day went today. How is your day? Good night ..
This is how my day went today. How is your day? Good night 🤍
Today the first snow fell. But the feeling of Christmas magi..
Today the first snow fell. But the feeling of Christmas magic does not come. Snow always brings me back to a carefree time and the feeling of a fairy tale. Takes me back to that cozy and warm time with my grandparents. My grandpa had two dogs, he was very fond of dogs, especially poodles. Every morning and evening he went for a walk with them and I always asked my grandfather to take me with him. I remember very well one winter day when we persuaded my grandma to come with us. I rush as fast as I can along a long corridor to get my winter ...
I'm trying to catch a wave of creativity. It came to me agai..
I'm trying to catch a wave of creativity. It came to me again. There were several ideas for creating paintings, in another week I will have a new training for self-development. I made several points of the plan for 2023. Now I am working on them. As a person who has had a long and protracted depression, I can say with confidence that sometimes in order to change this state, when nothing helps, you just need to start doing something. You know, I heard this story from a psychotherapist. A man came to her who was in a terrible depression,...
A strange thing happened yesterday… My mother had a birthda..
A strange thing happened yesterday… My mother had a birthday, I ordered flowers for her to be delivered to another country. Paid for the order, but it was not delivered 😡 At this point, I was in training and I was constantly distracted by something that would check the message from the site manager or support. I got very upset. The exercises were very difficult for me. I couldn't relax at all. When I left the training, the manager of the site where I ordered flower delivery stopped answering me. And then something strange happened...
do you like stockings? To be honest, I really love stockin..
do you like stockings? To be honest, I really love stockings, I think this is sexy and beautiful 🖤 If I were a man, I would go crazy
Hi guys. There's so much going on right now, I don't even kn..
Hi guys. There's so much going on right now, I don't even know where to start. While I'm trying to organize all my areas of life, my “roof” goes a little due to permanent stress. I want to share something less and less, to communicate with people too. You only see a small part of my life, and perhaps many people think that I am living in a Disney fairy tale, traveling and lounging. No, it's not. Every day I struggle with worldly problems, stress, health, difficult relationships with people, financial issues, lack of ins...
Sweet dreams 😘😈
Sweet dreams 😘😈
Hello guys! I wanted to tell you about the painting. Althoug..
Hello guys! I wanted to tell you about the painting. Although this text will have little to do with the painting . It's more about my dad… I noticed that every time I think about my father or when we talk on the phone, some time later or on the same day, I unconsciously draw pics of black holes. It is very interesting. I began to analyze this note. Maybe it's because I remember very vaguely one memory of watching a movie about space together with my dad. My relationship with my father is not very good. Because he is a very complex p...
Hey! 👋🏽 while writing a new post for you, tell me how are y..
Hey! 👋🏽 while writing a new post for you, tell me how are you? ❤️ Also, check out my new painting. What do you think about it? What emotions does it evoke in you? I want to talk a little about it in the next post. By the way, this painting is available for purchase, if anyone wants to get one of my painting, write to me in DM -canvas without stretcher -40 cm -oil you can see my other works on instagram by nickname @_lysergicc
What do you dream of being when you grow up? I don’t know ..
What do you dream of being when you grow up? I don’t know how it is in your countries, but in my country, when I was little, it was customary for girls to keep a diary. Every girl had one. We wrote secrets in them, made various questionnaires for the boys in our class to find out who they like. 😄 I remember how always in such questionnaires in the column “what do you dream of becoming when you grow up” I answered “astronaut”. I have always dreamed of going to space, studying the stars and the universe. Then it seemed to me that ...
I woke up late, I have breakfast. During breakfast, I silent..
I woke up late, I have breakfast. During breakfast, I silently look at the wall, with one hand I hold a fork and eat a salad, with the other I sort out my hair. Outside the window the sun, the last warm days of autumn. This year, autumn is especially beautiful. As if for the first time in my life I notice how the seasons change. As if before it was something ordinary that you did not pay attention to. And now I'm watching this tree outside my window and I see how its colors change. I light up the cigaret. There are a lot of unread message...
