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Hi there 👋🏽 The only good news is that I finally passed my t..
Hi there 👋🏽 The only good news is that I finally passed my theory exam at a driving school 🥳 The funny thing is that I did it on my 41st try. All I have to do is pass the practical exam and then take the state exams. I really hope that in 2024 I will get a driver's license. Now I drive using my Belarusian driver's license. Now for some news about my emotional state. I still feel very bad and depressed. I can’t and don’t want to do almost anything 😔 I turned to a psychiatrist for help, and I really hope that the pills ...
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Hello guys! I haven't been here for a long time. Honestly, ..
Hello guys! I haven't been here for a long time. Honestly, I don’t really know what to write about. I'm in such a "dull" state right now. I don’t want to do anything... I have a lot of thoughts, but it’s difficult to express them. I decided to go to a psychologist, because I can’t quite cope on my own. Sometimes I still feel anxious and sad. I don’t draw at all, I don’t go to training. The desire for life is completely absеnt. I constantly conduct dialogues with myself, in my head, and try to understand what is ha...
On Wednesday evening I left the house to take a walk around ..
On Wednesday evening I left the house to take a walk around the city. I turned on music in my headphones and tried to distract the thoughts in my head. It turned out really bad for me, to be honest. Anxiety was creeping in more and more. To my questions: Well, look around, you are yоung, beautiful, you are in a cool city, great weather, you are wearing shorts and the whole world belongs to you. Why you Can't be happy, you, bag of weak-willed feces??? I can not. It’s not possible to get distracted at all. Even music makes me anxious. I re...
The pain accumulated somewhere behind the right eye and at t..
The pain accumulated somewhere behind the right eye and at the end of the day it turned into a real migraine, so that I wanted to freeze in complete immobility. So that she would think that I am not here and leave. I wanted to bang my head against the wall until my skull cracked to the source of my suffering in order to get it out. I decided that completely destroying myself wouldn't be so bad compared to how I felt. My morning started with a bottle of wine. Then my friend gave me some dr**s. I knew that mixing with alcohol was a bad idea...
Wow, I haven't felt this bad in a long time. To be honest, I..
Wow, I haven't felt this bad in a long time. To be honest, I don’t even know what to write to you. There's just emptiness inside. Constant anxiety and nothing more. I force myself to do some small tasks during the day. For all the time I painted only one painting . By the way, it is available for purchase. If someone wants to support me, you know what to do. I will be grateful. I have many small paintings that you can purchase and support me. I'll tell you a little about this painting . I wanted to do something like a self- portr...
I'm sitting on the train… I'm going to the mountains. This i..
I'm sitting on the train… I'm going to the mountains. This is another reason why I love Poland, because at any time you can take a bus and go to the mountains or to the sea. A couple of hours and you're there. It was a very spontaneous decision. Yesterday I walked down the street and could hardly drag my feet. I felt so bad and depressed, I didn’t sleep a wink all night. There are the same questions in my head, endlessly repeating and eating me up from the inside. Permanent feeling of anxiety. You know, that feeling when yo...
It's been 7 months since my last depressive episode. I usua..
It's been 7 months since my last depressive episode. I usually feel this way, and for the past month I have felt that this moment would soon come. There is no way to prepare for it. Depression hits me with such force that one day I wake up and suddenly lose interest and pleasure in everything. I have unbearable difficulty in functioning on a daily basis. I don't even have the strength to take a shower. I'm not interested in my family or friends. I feel only despair and emptiness. I'm afraid for my future and don't see any...
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sweet dreams ✨😈
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good night, sweetie 😘
Hello friends! There have been many worries in recent days..
Hello friends! There have been many worries in recent days. I spend endless time studying, learning driving tests and trying to get used to the Polish language. This Saturday and Sunday I will have the last theory classes and then practice. I spend a lot of time developing my instagram where I draw. Now I'm not having a very good period, so I try to treat it like a WORK. I Doing something every day to help my instagram get out of this abyss of stupid algorithms. Yesterday I went to the forest with my friends, I helped to shoot a video f...
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Hello my friends! My life is a continuous roller coaster. ..
Hello my friends! My life is a continuous roller coaster. I'll start my story with the fact that last week a film appeared on the net about the protests in my country where I come from. Let me remind you for those who may not be in the know and subscribed to me not long ago: I am from Belarus in 2021, I had to emigrate to Poland for obvious reasons. I think that all of you follow the news in the world and know about the events in Belarus in 2020. So, I left and started life anew, in a foreign country. Starting from scratch is always h...
F*ck…. 😢
F*ck…. 😢
Hey, good morning ❤️ My last birthday that I celebrated was..
Hey, good morning ❤️ My last birthday that I celebrated was when I was 11 years old. My mom baked a cake and drew big 11s on it with whipped cream. I invited my friends over. They came with gifts and wished me a bunch of different wishes. I've never felt comfortable accepting these wishes. As I got older I realized exactly what I was experiencing at that moment. I did not understand why people say kind words on this particular day, but do not say them on other days. Why can't we just give a gift to a loved one on another day. It ...
Today is my birthday 🥳🤍 I’m 28 I didn't think about a birt..
Today is my birthday 🥳🤍 I’m 28 I didn't think about a birthday present for a long time, because I know what I want You know how much I love taking photos in my travel, so I’m really want for a new lens for my camera. If you want to support and help me with this, I will be very grateful 🤍 you can also just support me just leave your likes and comments under my video 🤍 I hug everyone and wish you a good day 👽🙏🏽
Do you believe in friendship between a man and a woman? Ho..
Do you believe in friendship between a man and a woman? How to ruin a friendship? All my life I've been plagued by unhappiness in terms of friendship. All my friends (girls) stopped communicating after they found a partner. Girls in general, as my experience shows, do not know how to share friendship / relationships, etc. They seem to merge with their partner and spend 24/7 with him. In addition, girls are very often hypocritical and not sincere. That's why it's always been easier for me to be friends with guys. But unfortunatel...
Some corridor of eclipses visited me just now. At first I ..
Some corridor of eclipses visited me just now. At first I got sick with cystitis. Which tormented me for 8 days. I can say that it was the longest relapse in my life. On the 8th day, when I felt better, literally after 2 hours I was overcome by an allergy. For the third day, it does not want to let me go. During these days I have already taken so many pills that yesterday I caught an alarming state. but I still sat down to draw a little and finish the painting, which I have not been able to finish for about a month. And today the unbearab...
Hi, how are you doing? A few updates from my life. I went t..
Hi, how are you doing? A few updates from my life. I went to see a doctor, got tested to get my cystitis treated. Unfortunately, none of the four drugs helped me. I still suffer from pain and constant trips to the toilet. I also did an arallysis called cytology to rule out the possibility of cancer. In all my life and during that period of my kidney disease, I have never had such a long relapse. Today is the 7th day when I constantly feel a cutting pain in the lower abdomen 24/7, I also have a feeling of a full bladder. I am very tired these...
In general, I thought that I would write a new text with my ..
In general, I thought that I would write a new text with my stories and thoughts, but fucked up happen with my health… I don’t want to write anything ... I just want to die so that this pain ends ... To be brief, I have chronic cystitis in an acute form of exacerbation. And now for the fifth day the pills do not help me. It is now two in the morning and I cannot sleep because of the wild pain and the constant feeling that I want to go to the toilet. It seems to me that a little more and my kidneys will fail. I try to get a little distracte...
I so wanted to see the milky way 🤍🌌 Wherever I am, I always..
I so wanted to see the milky way 🤍🌌 Wherever I am, I always go out at night to look at the stars and check the sky for anything interesting. I always set alarms so as not to oversleep midnight when the starry sky is the brightest. My friends won't let me lie, I'm crazy about it all. I went outside, because on the Internet they promised a parade of planets. I did not see the parade of planets, because according to the star map it was just behind the mountain. Then I decided to leave the territory of the house where I stayed, wen...
It was boring in Tbilisi, so a firm decision was made to get..
It was boring in Tbilisi, so a firm decision was made to get to the Tusheti National Park, which, by the way, is another task to get to. If only because the way to Tusheti lies through the "road of death", one of the most dangerous roads in the world. 70 km of mountainous, narrow serpentine, located at a rather really height at an angle, without barriers and protections. You can get there only from June to October, because the rest of the time the road is covered with snow and it is closed. From transport only an SUV or a horse :) A d...
On this day I had shootings for SG. The girls and I rented a..
On this day I had shootings for SG. The girls and I rented an apartment in the center of Tbilisi, and made our little „shootfest” It was still about 3 hours before filming, so I decided to take a walk around the city. It was very hot, I stopped under a bridge overlooking Tbilisi to take a smoke break and hide from the sun a bit. A man called from behind me. He spoke Russian. The man looked about 55-60 years old, he was very friendly, but extremely unpleasant to me, because he did not keep his distance. I am a very squeamish person, I do...
Hi guys! While the memories of Georgia are still fresh in m..
Hi guys! While the memories of Georgia are still fresh in my memory, I will start with this. First, it was a complete disaster. I have always had a good opinion about Georgia. Upon arrival, my opinion changed almost immediately. I arrived at Kutaisi airport, but this was not the end point of my route. In Tbilisi, girls and a photographer were waiting for me. (I came to shoot for SG.) From Kutaisi to Tbilisi about 300 km, about 4 hours of travel. I bought a bus ticket, sat down and looked out the window with a blissful smile, looking forward ...
Hi guys! Let's take a break from my stories about travel in ..
Hi guys! Let's take a break from my stories about travel in motorhome and I'll tell you a new good news 🥰 Now I'm in Georgia. I came here to make a lot of new content for you 🤍 Unfortunately, my stay in Georgia did not end well for me, but I will tell you about this a little later. This is a very sad story 😓 But now about the good. We had a wonderful photo day today. Finally, we do a multiset for SG with @helga1 We come from the same country, but living in the same city, we could not make a multiset. Now @helga1 li...
MOTORHOME TRAVEL 🧳 (swipe for photos) After walking around..
MOTORHOME TRAVEL 🧳 (swipe for photos) After walking around the city, I went to look for a place to spend the night. Just look what place I found. With a view of the waterfall, around the mountains and a large lake. But I was little upset by the fact that it was already the 4th day of my trip, and I did not see the Alps, because the weather was very cloudy. I have always dreamed of coming to Switzerland and seeing the Alps. When I was a сhild, I watched commercials about Milka chocolate and these memories left an imprint in my head of be...
MOTORHOME TRAVEL 🧳 (swipe for photos) I usually set my alar..
MOTORHOME TRAVEL 🧳 (swipe for photos) I usually set my alarm for 7 am to wake up earlier, have breakfast, wash my face and continue on my journey. But not this morning. I woke up to the deafening and piercing sound of the bells. The first thing I thought (I was very sleepy) was that I was being taken away by a tow truck. I got a little scared and opened the window. The first thing I saw was a huge number of crosses and graves. Can you imagine how scared I was? Ahahaha I was standing right in the cemetery!!! At night, I didn't even real...
Hello guys ❤️ Before you read the next chapter of my journey..
Hello guys ❤️ Before you read the next chapter of my journey, I am happy to announce that my new set for SG is already in MR, which you can see here👇🏽 https://www.suicidegirls.com/girls/valeriya/album/5489997/private-interlude/ and support me with your likes and comments 🤍 MOTORHOME TRAVEL 🧳(swipe for photos) Munich turned out to be a very nice and pleasant city, so I can call the time spent there calm and without much adventure. After making a night stop in the Bavarian province, having dinner with my favorite soy cutlets an...
MOTORHOME TRAVEL 🧳 (swipe for photos) I'm here!!! Uhhh, I ..
MOTORHOME TRAVEL 🧳 (swipe for photos) I'm here!!! Uhhh, I will continue my travel story and you will understand my absence. 🫣 I so wanted to wake up and make my favorite avocado toast for breakfast, make delicious coffee that tasted even better because it was made in a motor home and on a trip that I had dreamed of for two years. I planned to have breakfast and go for a walk around Prague. But my mood quickly soured due to parking lots. For all my trip, I can confidently say that Prague was the most difficult city in terms of p...
MOTORHOME TRAVEL 🧳 (swipe for photos) At 8.50 in the morni..
MOTORHOME TRAVEL 🧳 (swipe for photos) At 8.50 in the morning I was already standing at the gate of a man who rents out motorhomes. I was looking forward to when I could load my things and hit the road. I had 14 days of adventure ahead of me. The owner came and we started a little training on how to use the motor home. I think I didn't listen to him very carefully. I wanted to get on the road as soon as possible. An hour later he gave me the keys and wished me a good road. “Finally,” I thought, grabbed my backpack and easel and go...
